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On My Knees

Wed, 25 Sep 2013 02:02:13 GMT

For those of you who know me, you will know that I am a workaholic. I am constantly doing something to "get it done". My brother in law often tells me, "Sandi, it's OK to sit down for a while. You won't die." God is trying to teach me a simple lesson, and I am struggling to say the least.
As we are trying to move forward with the youth program, we find that we are lacking financially, and in volunteers, which is pretty much two main components to run the program. We have given up everything that we can give up. We have done everything that he asked us to do and that we know to do. And yet we are still spinning our wheels. Over the past couple of weeks the word prayer keeps coming up. As I was listening to KLOVE in the car, I was stressing about the farm and what can I do to get volunteers to come out . How can I get money coming in. Then, Starts With Me, by Tim Timmons started playing.

Starts With Me

It came to me right away, I am working way too hard to do something that I can't do and God doesn't want me to do. Simply get on my knees and pray. So I started to ponder about this. Days go by and as usual I am trying to come up with ideas, trying to fix it. Then as I was listening to Joyce Myer she was talking about how important prayer is . How we can all get so busy and forget about such a simple thing of taking it to God. Prayer should not be our last resort "Well all I can do now is pray." It should be our first go to. All the while I was trying to figure it all out God just wanted me to stop and get on my knees and ask him to do it. But then you have to take it a step further. To me this is even the harder part.
God kept telling me to do what I can do on the farm and let him worry about the rest. But for someone like me that is not so easy. I was talking with a friend of mine from church and I was telling her how I am really getting frustrated trying to figure out a way to get volunteers and get money coming in. And she looked right at me and said, "You pray about it and you leave it alone!" Such a simple concept but so hard to do. But until I can get to that point of leaving it alone and BELIEVING that God is taking care of it. I will continue to go around that mountain. I get so busy with the everyday farm chores, on top of my kids and their schooling, activities and caring for them and the house, plus the ministry and somewhere in there is my husband and myself, that praying just simply gets missed.
I want more than anything in my life to save these kids and if I have to reshape my mind and way of thinking from me doing all the work then that is what I will do. It is not easy, but these children's lives count on me getting mine in order. So I write it down, I ask Howard to remind me, what ever it takes to remember to just stop and pray everyday for God to bless this ministry, help us to do what is right and give us grace to believe it and to keep going forward without holding the reins.
So I ask if you are reading this to please pray for our ministry and our family as without that as our foundation it will never work.

Shout it out and Fairy Dust

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 00:57:56 GMT

As a Christian growing up there are two very simple things that I never learned. They are very simple and can make all the difference in your life. One is the power of speaking it out loud. God NEVER just thought about something and it happened, he SPOKE it. In the old testament God spoke the world into existence, Genesis 1:1-25, it continually says And God said. In Psalm 33:8-9 it talks about the Lord spoke, and it came to be. He did not just think about it or whisper it. In the new testament in Mark 4:39 he spoke to the storm to calm it, and in John 11:43 Jesus cried out in a loud voice for Lazarus to come forth. Once again he did not just think it or whisper it. These are just a couple of examples of many throughout the bible. So when you really want God to hear you or you really want an answer from God, speak it out loud, shout it if you have too. If your looking for something to happen in your life speak it over and over again out loud. "Speak things that aren't as though they were". Romans 4:17

The other thing that I learned was how important grace is. It is the magic fairy dust that God sprinkles on our life every morning to let us be able to deal with (handle) things that we can not on our own. Some examples might be when your spouse and you aren't getting along and you want to leave God's grace comes in an magically helps you handle it and you stay. When you are sick of the mundane getting up every morning and doing the same thing everyday; God's grace comes in and you carry on. I ask for God to give me new grace everyday. Without God's grace in my life I would not be where I am today.

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