For those of you who know me, you will know that I am a workaholic. I am constantly doing something to "get it done". My brother in law often tells me, "Sandi, it's OK to sit down for a while. You won't die." God is trying to teach me a simple lesson, and I am struggling to say the least.
As we are trying to move forward with the youth program, we find that we are lacking financially, and in volunteers, which is pretty much two main components to run the program. We have given up everything that we can give up. We have done everything that he asked us to do and that we know to do. And yet we are still spinning our wheels. Over the past couple of weeks the word prayer keeps coming up. As I was listening to KLOVE in the car, I was stressing about the farm and what can I do to get volunteers to come out . How can I get money coming in. Then, Starts With Me, by Tim Timmons started playing.
Starts With Me
God kept telling me to do what I can do on the farm and let him worry about the rest. But for someone like me that is not so easy. I was talking with a friend of mine from church and I was telling her how I am really getting frustrated trying to figure out a way to get volunteers and get money coming in. And she looked right at me and said, "You pray about it and you leave it alone!" Such a simple concept but so hard to do. But until I can get to that point of leaving it alone and BELIEVING that God is taking care of it. I will continue to go around that mountain. I get so busy with the everyday farm chores, on top of my kids and their schooling, activities and caring for them and the house, plus the ministry and somewhere in there is my husband and myself, that praying just simply gets missed.
I want more than anything in my life to save these kids and if I have to reshape my mind and way of thinking from me doing all the work then that is what I will do. It is not easy, but these children's lives count on me getting mine in order. So I write it down, I ask Howard to remind me, what ever it takes to remember to just stop and pray everyday for God to bless this ministry, help us to do what is right and give us grace to believe it and to keep going forward without holding the reins.
So I ask if you are reading this to please pray for our ministry and our family as without that as our foundation it will never work.